The one and only FSU Pirate

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 16:26:35 GMT

dear live journal....
I won.... Its just a matter of time till i claim my prize.
That's all for now.

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 06:02:19 GMT

Dear live journal. in the past 24 hours i have decided i truly miss my friends vic n dee... and being drunk all the time with them. I have learned that my life is full of bullshit responisbilities and emotions and all this other horseshit that i have to deal with. frankly im tried of caring how other ppl feel and if i hurt their feelings or if our lacrosse team plays a damn game n loses. why did i sign up to be so responsible? i think the better question is when did i sign up? i dont remember signing my name to any form that said for the rest of ur life u will be full of stress and constant worry if everyone else's life works out. maybe im being over dramatic right now. its prolly the stress of being on the verge of being completely broke. I try to look at the positives in life but i think the HTP has completely broken me of that. i am always so negative about things but in a way isnt that how life should be then u can never be disappointed... i think most of the stress is that i psych myself out because i cant fix the problem right now its more of i have to wait n see if itll work out thing and that bugs me becuz i dont have control.maybe im just anayzling too much shit right now. ugh why didnt anyone tel us growing up was goin to suck balls...

and why/ when did money become the main source of all my problems?

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 23:38:07 GMT

haha man i do good work. 1 year 9 months relationships dont have shit on me..... if he could he would n i mite respect him more but fear not my lovers i will win

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 15:26:51 GMT

is it bad to try and break up a 3 yr relationship? Dee... Vic?

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 17:11:10 GMT

I HATE OTHER STATES....AKA IOWA AND THIS DAMN ICE STORM....

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 21:11:59 GMT

Dear Denita and Vicki....
Instead of commenting on your post i decided to post my own. I am indeed ready to become a surf bum.... in fact it would be the final surface that i havent mastered so far on a board... thank you for including me in your future lives .... P.S. i love you both please visit me at ferris since no one can keep up wit me drinking wise

hmm all my friends are doing it

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 12:25:01 GMT

well the only ppl that matter on here denita n vick updated their shit so i guess i should say something or another. i cant write like denita and im not at some amazing mountain like vick so my life is just as good as it can get without a 2738ft vertical drop. im in a middle of nothingsville and love every minute of it....

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 13:26:14 GMT

have you ever thought maybe you were setting youself up for failure? lately it seems though i have been doing this. which leads to ask some questions can you ever just leave the past in the past? why is it that it still haunts you years after it happened? is it possible for the real first love to be the one and to move on to someone else while you are still stuck there thinking its only gonna be them? why does it seem that i have been picking the wrong ppl and who can you tell is truly your friend or not? when did the world get this why and why is nothing appreciated the way it should be? maybe im being over emotional but all i can do is keep asking myself these questions... which is puttin me into a depression im thinkin i mite go get some ink down to feel better.... but the last question i have is does anyone think its possible for the past to relive itself but with a different person... ex. the way you meet someone and date them and then two years later you meet someone else in the exact same way? are we set to follow the same pattern of life? and is it ok to miss something that is long gone?

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 00:09:04 GMT

I GOT MY 21st LICENSES

this is all i can relaly say

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 19:56:24 GMT

I'm missing you so much, I'll see you die tonight
Just so I can get to you before the sun will rise
I know the signs are on and I feel this too
None of that ever seems to matter when I'm holding you

And I'm wasting away, away from you

What have I gotten into this time around
I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again but I didn't have to

You had me at hello.

I've never seen a smile that can light the room like yours
It's simply radiant, I feel more with everyday that goes by
I watch the clock to make my timing just right

Would it be okay?
Would it be okay if I took your breath away?

And I'm wasting away, away from you.

What have I gotten into this time around
I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again but I didn't have to
You had me at hello

You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
You gave me butterflies at the mailbox (you had me at hello)

You gave me butterflies (you are so cute)
at the mailbox (you had me at hello)
[x4]

What have I gotten into this time around
I know that I had sworn I'd never trust anyone again but I didn't have to
You had me at hello
You had me at hello
You had me at hello

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 15:28:49 GMT

I GOT A KITTEN for my birthday my brother got it for me... its black n white n its a girl n her name is olli she is 8 weeks old and i love her and i turn 21 in 17 days BEST LIFE EVER

the real deal

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 01:10:35 GMT

right now a ton of college kids are gettin ready to go out n party with their friends... im not gonna lie i am too but right now at the moment my 12 year old cousin is gettin chemo pumped into her and in the hosiptal becuz she has cancer and cant keep from getting sick.... it just doesnt seem right that we are all about to go out and destroy our lives and make fools of ourselves while my cousin who wants to be healthy is sick.... i guess its just a butural realization all the problems i thought i had could be so much worse and i just take it for granted

anyone suggest a good denist

Wed, 22 Aug 2007 00:46:27 GMT

so i went n got my teeth cleaned n they are assholes n didnt find a cavity n it has been killin me n i refuse to go back becuz they wanted to fill in "cavities" that arent even there yet but not the one that is actually there... im basically just waiting for it to fall out. argued wit mom again today. but i got my hair cut n dyed i cant fucking wait to leave thursday i never wanna come back n my rents are in denial they think im gonna come n visit but im not im done wit this town n im done with these people

ive been tapping kegs since before i could walk

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 00:01:57 GMT

so went to big rapids for a lil it was ok nothing really happened hung out wit some friends n chilled out. yesterday i saw super bad wit vick n we hung out took some good pictures. took her on her last tour of the HTP n made some funny phone calls haha...me n dad made my beer pong table this moring we made the legs adjustable so its a coffee table too haha n mom finally made a good dinner its about time... tomorrow i have to paint my table n go to sams club tues i get my hair did n then idk n wed is packing n up in the air.... HOPEFULLY i got thrifting wit dan barnes soon but idk he failed to call me the first time but he said he would this time haha. n thursday is moving back to big rapids i am either leaving at 7 or 8 i am so pumped i cant wait to see all my friends...

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 00:37:23 GMT

Imagine that you're standing all alone on a football field. You can choose to stand anywhere you want to, but once you pick your spot, you can't move again.

Now imagine that, somewhere over by the entrance, about a million people are massed and waiting, about to be released onto the field. They're participating in a contest and the first one to touch you wins a brand new HDTV, a trip to Tahiti, and their very own pony. Granted, they're all blindfolded. But once they're free to run around the stadium's enclosed space, how long do you really think it will take for one of them—or 20 of them—to slam right into you?

That, in a nutshell, is sex—from the perspective of an egg. When you think about it that way, it's almost tempting to reverse the old adage about conception. Having a baby isn't a miracle

HAHAH i thought this was perfect

FUCK OFF HTP

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 03:06:01 GMT

So good news is i decided i could not take dunhams anymore n i got a propsal that i seem to like rather much... this is wat happened me n ferg have been playing phone tag so the other day i called him after work. i was having a horrible day so he was telling me how he was moving up to ferris next week n i told him how i hated my job n he gave me the idea of quiting n moving up wit him... so i came home n went out to dinner wit mom dad shane n her friend from maryland n i told them about hte idea and they actually thought it was an amazing idea they think that dunhams is crushing my soul... so tues is my last day at work n i told them tonite n they werent that happy but watever.... so wed after my denist appt im movin up my dad said it was shocking i think he wanted to hang out more but if i quit im not gonna do anything here so it would be useless for me to stay so i im goin up to big rapids for 6 days coming home monday n i have a hair appt tues n tigers game on wed n then im back up there... needless to say im super excited

in conclusion this is just rambling

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 10:21:08 GMT

so its 6 in the morning and the real question is why the fuck am i up? haha i really wish i had a good answer but i can only guess it was becuz last nite it all started when i got paid at work *remember this it will be important later... anyways i took my lap top to my room for some good quality music n reading welll i had my music on all the way until 5 when i finally woke up n decided to turn it off. i tried to roll over n go back to sleep but i couldnt. so i thought of wat i had to do today which was go to the bank then i came up wit 5 different opinions of how to put my check in to my two different accounts. this got me a lil excited cuz then i thought about my loan check n wat the banker is gonna be like when i cash a 10500 loan n i started to giggle which made me excited for school. so then i started thinkin about how i could decorate my room and from there it snowballed. so now i have 3 or 4 different idea for my room, a list of shit i gotta buy before i leave and the idea i finally get customized checks. odd as it is the only thing i could really think to do at this time of the hour is go running so i checked weather .com haha wow that was a joke since its already 75 degrees out at 6 am that is fucking nuts so i dont know wat im gonna do i cant really go downstairs since then ill want to start my day. but the good news is i am goin on our boat today but i mite take a trip out to sterling heights to see if that dunhams has wakeboards so then i can not waste a day on the water. if you ever looking so something to watch in the morning there is nothing... so once i started thinkin about school i got super excited cuz i cant wait to see all my friends n be in at home again. i love the atmosphere up there. i cant believe how good of year this is gonna be seriously...

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 23:20:05 GMT

so today was great i made my new desk in 45 mins BY MYSELF thank you self... and i got 300 the movie so im gonna watch it for the next 6 months haha i am so excited... i almost punched the denist in the face but that isnt nothing new. went in the pool and we are gettin the boat tomorrow n cleaning the shit out of it and taking it out on friday all day im so excited but a lil nervous cuz of seaweed. but oh well. had something stange happen last nite but i only laughed cuz i have him right where i want him... anyways im gettin packing anxiety cuz i cant pack all my shit to go up to school n i move in the 23rd n then the rents are bringin my bed the 24th so ill be drunk prolly the WHOLE time they are there and if not then as soon as they leave. god its gonna be a fucking amazing year and im super pumped

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 23:36:54 GMT

so nothing has really happened hung out wit dan barnes had a blast worked a 12 hour shift.... I GOT A RAISE n new shoes n my cat ate a bunny i was so proud thats pretty much it i go to ferris tomorrow n work at royal oak dunhams on sat so that will be fun warp tour is in 8 days n im pumped to see lindsey

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 01:58:39 GMT

IM GOING TO BIG RAPIDS FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS TO TUBE N SEE MY BUDDIES YAY

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 04:17:45 GMT

i cant wait to go back to school..... this year is gonna be nothing short of amazing.... haha my life in the palm of my hand

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 17:56:00 GMT

IN CONCLUSION I NEED TO HANG OUT WIT DAN BARNES MORE

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 01:35:27 GMT

i have come to realize you broke me.... you broke my spirit... i dont kno how but you did and now i realize why i do some of the things i do.....

im just glad to know im so replaceable

fuck that just happened

Fri, 18 May 2007 05:22:26 GMT

Ok some girls follow this
Wait for the boy who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the boy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at any time of the day, no matter what the circumstances. Wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other boy makes you smile and when he smiles you know he needs you. Wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no makeup on, but appreciates it when you get all dolled up for him. Most of all wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe, because obviously he's at the center of yours.

me i made up my own... and it goes like this
wait for a boy who will take you to a tigers game, unstead of his boyes becuz he knows you love zumaya. and wait for a boy who will give you a beer when ur hand is empty. and wait for a boy who tries to have conversations with you. and wait for a boy who will take you to a car show becuz he knows you adore old classics. and wait for a boy who when you are cold snowboarding will put his arm around you n give you a shot of som hot damn... n wait for a boy who doesnt care that you dont own any girly clothes and loves it when you wear boy pants and have scabs on your body from eating shit from skateboarding

Tue, 08 May 2007 20:28:16 GMT

my new boyfriend is so strong he threw out his middle right finger warming up in the bull pen saturday... sadly though he will be out for 12 weeks he is having sugery thurs... the trainers say they didnt know it was even possible but my pookie is just that good....

p.s. his name is joel zumaya im prolly gonna marry him within the year